KAITO: SHADOW GARBAGE AU EDITION OPEN POST

[was_no_monster]

Because sometimes you love both the split personality and inner demons tropes way too much, and there's only one way to handle it.

THE AU IS RIDICULOUS, but all you really need to know is Kaito got humanity's malice dumped into his head along with ridiculous power, and his way of coping with both that and the trauma involved was to shove it all in with everything else he represses the heck out of and then completely dissociate himself from it. End result: what he thinks of as his inner monster has completely split off into a personality of its own, following the imagery and pattern left behind by the Shadow from that one time the Vocaloid Dressing Room had a Persona event.

(Please don't judge me.)

Feel free to pick a scenario, if you can't think of one just blank tag this sucker and I'll come up with something!

Warning! There will be a decently high probability of maiming in this post! If you're not okay with that, that's cool; just let me know in a comment header or something and I will have normal Kaito intervene. (Alternately, if you want to get mauled... well. All you have to do is ask :))

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[was_no_monster]

[ it's true, the other part of him is also objectively an ass ]

I'd noticed. ...I have faith in you, though. I've never believed you were bad; only badly damaged.

...and... Tristan, I need you to try to be open with me, at least sometimes. The worst—

The worst part of this wasn't your control, or... it wasn't your control alone. It was being treated like something you didn't care about— like a dog you couldn't even be bothered to put down.

[royallyfuckedup]

Would it really have been better to tell you I love you while forcing you to kneel?

[Maybe it would have. Any affection, any openness, might have helped. He's intimately aware of what it's like to be treated as garbage.]

...I'm under an effect to tell the truth right now. I can't promise to be open. I may try but it's less natural and more painful and frightening then any other favor you could ask. Openness is vulnerability, it's exploitable.

[was_no_monster]

I wouldn't—

[ pauses. he knows how little words can be worth. hums and feels at Tristan instead, fiercely protective and possessive and you are mine and I will shred anything that hurts you and that includes me. ]

...trying is enough. I know admitting weakness is difficult.

[royallyfuckedup]

[And who will protect you? From me, mainly. Because he relaxes a little bit and he, he can believe what he feels from Kaito.]

Kaito....

[was_no_monster]

[ ...sighs ]

That's... enough for now. Maybe I shouldn't wait until you can lie to work the rest of this out, but I'm tired. ...I can go talk to the theater tomorrow; maybe they would have ideas for ways to protect me from you.

[royallyfuckedup]

[He keeps petting Kaito, because he wants to and the contact is nice.]

Okay.

[Just agree to whatever Kaito wants. That seems safest for now, when his own wants are still just to keep Kaito forever.]

Will you stay, for now?

[Just asking. After all Kaito's free to leave if he's that tired.]

[was_no_monster]

I'd like to.

[royallyfuckedup]

...Thank you.

[was_no_monster]

[ nuzzles ]

I'm not going to leave you alone in the dark.

[royallyfuckedup]

I wouldn't blame you if you did.

[was_no_monster]

You've made that clear. I'm still not going to.

[royallyfuckedup]

Kaito....

[He tightens his fingers against Kaito's neck. Just gentle holding.]

I have trouble believing it. That you'd stay after everything. I'll try to be less suspicious. I can feel your motives after all.

[It's just baffling]

[was_no_monster]

If you can believe in nothing else, believe that I take a lot of pride in being stubborn as all Hell.

...it helps, for certain definitions of the word, that I... can't really be anything else, at the moment.

[royallyfuckedup]

Is that all you have left?

[was_no_monster]

[ thinking... ]

...Just about. Stubbornness, forgiveness... fragments of a few other things, too, but it figures those would be the last things I'd give up.

[royallyfuckedup]

...Why?

[was_no_monster]

The rest of me started out as something that was intended to devour me if I didn't accept it. ...It doesn't mean to, anymore, but it's... easy to let it. It's always been my escape when I was in too much pain to handle on my own.

[royallyfuckedup]

...Will you recover?

[was_no_monster]

I think so. If I stop letting it run wild... it might take a while before we're balanced again.

[royallyfuckedup]

But you won't vanish?

[was_no_monster]

Not if I can rest.

[royallyfuckedup]

...Okay.

[was_no_monster]

[ hums and sticks his face up against Tristan's neck, the same way he had after that nightmare. his lips have a slight but definite curve to them. ]