KAITO: SHADOW GARBAGE AU EDITION OPEN POST

[was_no_monster]

Because sometimes you love both the split personality and inner demons tropes way too much, and there's only one way to handle it.

THE AU IS RIDICULOUS, but all you really need to know is Kaito got humanity's malice dumped into his head along with ridiculous power, and his way of coping with both that and the trauma involved was to shove it all in with everything else he represses the heck out of and then completely dissociate himself from it. End result: what he thinks of as his inner monster has completely split off into a personality of its own, following the imagery and pattern left behind by the Shadow from that one time the Vocaloid Dressing Room had a Persona event.

(Please don't judge me.)

Feel free to pick a scenario, if you can't think of one just blank tag this sucker and I'll come up with something!

Warning! There will be a decently high probability of maiming in this post! If you're not okay with that, that's cool; just let me know in a comment header or something and I will have normal Kaito intervene. (Alternately, if you want to get mauled... well. All you have to do is ask :))

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[royallyfuckedup]

I am busy, Kaito.

[was_no_monster]

You still need to eat. Working that long without taking a break for anything else isn't good for you.

[ unless you want some portion of Court to see you in your pajamas you might want to take actual action to stop him, Tristan... ]

[royallyfuckedup]

Kaito set me down.

[was_no_monster]

[ he's been trying to hang on to the mental image of his father, overworked and ill, as something to lever Tristan's earlier commands into working the way he wants them to. for a moment, that seems to hold in the face of the new order— ]

Higher processsing error: conflicting commands. Lower priority command "set me down" discarded—

[ his voice comes out distracted and flat except when quoting Tristan, at which point he mimics his inflection. when he stops talking he abruptly shudders to a halt in the middle of the hall ]

[royallyfuckedup]

[Oh jeez did he break him? He squirms and tries to at least get a look at Kaito's face, heart hammering in his throat.]

Kaito?

[was_no_monster]

[ flinches and tries to pull away from him, nearly dropping Tristan in the process. he puts him down in a hurry after that. ]

[royallyfuckedup]

[Instead of backing up he gets right in Kaito's space, cupping his face to inspect him.]

What was that?

[was_no_monster]

[ he's pale and shocky looking, and he flinches again but doesn't fight Tristan off. shutting his eyes to try to think about it; it's hard, like trying to catch something slippery with wet hands ]

There's... a program. For emergencies. My father could- could trigger it and tell me to do things, but he... removed his ability to use it after he was manipulated into using it to hurt me.

Some of- some of what you did to me has been going through it.

[royallyfuckedup]

Is it damaging you? What exactly just happened?

[was_no_monster]

No. It's just— upsetting. Difficult to think around when it's active.

[ also gives him screaming nightmares, but he already complained about that. ]

You told me to protect you. That takes higher priority than almost any other order you can give me. I— I decided that guarding your health was a part of that, so the program interpreted the new order as an attempt to override the old ones and- stepped in.

[ since Tristan's holding his face he can feel Kaito start to blush partway through the explanation— his objective kicking in as he reluctantly forces the truth out, making heat rise to his face ]

[royallyfuckedup]

[He relaxes a bit, less alarmed now that it's been explained.]

Why do you even have an obedience program?

....You're blushing.

[was_no_monster]

[ PULLS BACK, trying to get Tristan out of his space ]

I have an objective for being honest when I'd rather not be.

The programming was for emergencies only— when I was very young I had the mind of a child, so I wouldn't necessarily have done what I was told if something frightening or dangerous happened.

[royallyfuckedup]

[He lets Kaito withdraw.]

I'm afraid you'll be being honest with me quite a lot.


That is a stupid thing to leave in someone's head.

[He turns on his heel, on that hypocritical statement, and heads back to his room.]

[was_no_monster]

[ grits his teeth, and then raises his voice to call after him ]

Please promise me you'll take care of yourself.

[royallyfuckedup]

You should be hoping I give myself a heart attack, not trying to nanny me.

[was_no_monster]

[ snarls ]

Do you think I don't? This is what you've made of me, Tristan. I don't have a choice in it.

[royallyfuckedup]

...You're right. I should take better care of myself. I need to live a long, long, long healthy life. I'll eat. Go study.

[was_no_monster]

[ hisses angrily and whips around to stomp off toward the library before he can disgrace himself by crying yelling more ]

[royallyfuckedup]

[A+ feelings were expressed super well and maturely and there was no spite or miscommunication at all. Good job everyone.]

[was_no_monster]

[ excuse you none of what came out of my mouth was anything but absolute 100% truth and no feelings were involved at all!!

things continue like that, with Kaito sullenly following Tristan's orders as required and otherwise steadfastly ignoring him as much as possible, for as long as possible. this time, however, what breaks that period of avoidance is not Tristan— it's Kaito.

the nonphysical chains Kaito bound them both with in a panic weren't broken when Tristan snapped the physical ones, and they've had days now to settle in and grow tighter and more secure with every accidental tug on them from either side. and with that, it's become easier and easier to do so—

especially by someone who isn't awake enough to be careful, only aware that they're flat out terrified and bound completely helpless. it's the early hours of the morning, Kaito is dreaming, and in his thrashing panic he's yanking at those chains with enough force that Tristan could probably feel his terror and despair even if he left Court entirely. ]

[royallyfuckedup]

[Half living the nightmare himself Tristan wakes in a cold sweat. But not in his room. Somewhere in the nightmare he transported himself to Kaito's side and the implications in that sink in while he calls his breathing and reaches to take Kaito's arm, try to shake him awake firmly while his own heart still races with the feeling of being trapped and helpless.]

[It's doubly unpleasant, feeling the impact of Kaito's terror and his own old reaction to fear and being bound--inconvenient arousal and the urge to submit until it stops. It makes him furious and on edge even more than just the nightmare itself, Kaito's feelings bleeding over his and scrambling his calm.]

Wake up.

[was_no_monster]

[ snapping awake under the force of the order with one last burst of confused fear and almost immediately attempting to lash out at Tristan to get away from him. recognition filters in at the last moment, though, and he jerks to a hault before the blow can land. breathing heavily ]

T. Tristan...? What are- w-why are you...?

[ don't hurt me don't hurt me don't hurt me ]

[royallyfuckedup]

[Fuck fuck fuck he hasn't wanted to bare his throat in years and he knows, logically, he's just getting Kaito's panic mixed up with old triggers. But knowing it doesn't neatly stop the emotions and urges from fucking with him. He feels a little sick, disgusted with himself for still being like this.]

[His voice is strained.]

You were having a nightmare. I'm not going to hurt you.

[was_no_monster]

[ the sheer intensity of that bleedover of emotions is dying down, at least, since Kaito isn't actively yanking at Tristan anymore. his distrust is still palpable, though, as is his growing desire for comfort— it's an almost physical hunger for something that will make him stop hurting ]

...aah. I told you I couldn't sleep...

[royallyfuckedup]

...

[He reaches over, slides his fingers over the back of Kaito's neck and tugs gently. It's just a hug, holding Kaito against him the way he might hold one of his siblings after a nightmare.]